Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Exhausted

Well, today I am completely exhausted and not feeling well at all. I've had a cold since Sunday and it's just knocking me out. How can your head feel completely clogged and yet your nose run like a faucet?! I don't know, but that's what's happening.

I woke up today after sleeping pretty well but still feeling yucky. I had no energy but had stuff I needed done... We have been doing a really good job of keeping the house neat because if I go into labor I don't want come home with a baby to a messy house. I did the little amount of dishes in the sink, vacuumed downstairs, folded laundry, picked up our top tier of cake from Simply Cakes (a free gift for our one year anniversary-our is just a little late - my fault) ran to the grocery for milk, bread and juice, and went to my midwife appointment. I was so tired at the clinic that I was falling asleep in the waiting room, where I had to wait 15 minutes...longer than I've had to wait before but not a big deal.

I've been a little worried because Liam just isn't moving as much yesterday and today as he has in the past. After listening to his heartbeat and giving me the assignment of how many times he kicks in an hour (should be 10 at least...usually for Liam it's 10 in 7 mins) she said his heartbeat sounded good and if I'm still concerned we can do a non-stress test. I think it's just because I don't feel good that he's quieter, not to mention his movements have changed from real kicking to more rolling around. I am keeping a close watch on him, but so far he's kicked at least 10 times an hour.

After my appointment I went home and took a nap because I was falling asleep in the waiting room. When I woke up, Damon was making dinner for us!  I love that man :)

There's really no way to describe how strong my feelings for this baby are. I love him so much already it's unbelievable. The idea of labor doesn't even scare me (c-section does for some reason though!). I wake up every morning and think, "will this be the day I get to hold my baby?" I know it will change our lives forever, but I think it will be in a good way. Hard, but good way. My goal is to really keep my husband first after Liam arrives. I know that's going to be hard but I will truly try! My marriage is very important to me and I know how easy it is for a mother to totally bond to a child and have the father feel left out or abandoned. Please pray that I would be able to do this!

Tomorrow I am going to clean upstairs - bathroom, vacuum, wash sheets, put away playpen (we babysat for our 1 year old nephew and 5 year old niece this weekend) and tidy up the nursery. I'm hoping I feel better.

I hope you all have a wonderful night!

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Blessings

Have you ever been walking, kind of just minding your business, and all of a sudden you realize people keep looking at you funny, kind of like you're an alien? I feel like that is me all the time lately! I'm just pregnant...not another species! I really noticed it yesterday at work when I was walking from the hospital coffee shop to the clinic one before my shift started. It's either a "holy cow she is huge" look or a "oh, the miracle of life I'm gonna grin like an idiot" look. Whatever, it'll be worth it once he's here :)

37 weeks                                                        38 weeks

I can't believe how much my stomach has changed in just one week. I was comparing last weeks photo and today's photo and my belly is lower and bigger. I can tell it's bigger...not very many positions are comfortable any more. I did sleep really well last night which is wonderful! It always takes me a little while to fall asleep from being uncomfortable and it takes me about 30 minutes to wind down from the day, but after that, I was out cold. I think I only got up to go to the bathroom 3 times. Which by the way, I can do in complete darkness now, because I'm so used to the route I take! LOL. Oh the things we consider accomplishments ;)

Last night Damon and I went to our friend Liz and Brent's place for a wine and cheese night. It's kind of funny, there are four couples including us, and 2 of us women are pregnant so we can't even have wine! But we always have so much fun, and there is non-alcoholic wine for us to enjoy along with the cheese. I never thought I would have so many blessings in my life - God surely has given me more than I ever imagined! Damon, Liam, my family, Damon's family, our friends, our pets, we have a warm home to ourselves, food on the table, reliable cars, jobs, my list goes on and on! I've never been happier, even though my emotional ups and downs during pregnancy may fool you! ;)

My sister and I went to the Farmers Market today. Boy, was it cold! 44 degrees. I felt bad for all of the vendors - they looked chilly. Taylor has started this new GAPS diet so she basically bought them out of house and home today. I got some carrots, peppers, potatoes and 3 pumpkins. I always love carving pumpkins every year and even though Liam is due soon, I'd still like to carve them this year. I love the pumpkin seeds and always give some to my dad too - he says I make the best ones :)



So last night our friends Phil and Liz actually saw the high speed chase that took place! Cops chased him to the Culvers over by Wagner's Lanes and there was a shoot out and the man fleeing was shot. Stuff like that doesn't happen much here, it's crazy! It's such a small town, I hope we don't know the guy.

Damon's Dad and brother are on their way into town, they're going to go to the gun show in Chippewa, and I need to run to the grocery to get some spaghetti sauce for dinner. We are having spaghetti and homemade garlic bread for dinner. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Stay warm!


Tuesday, October 2, 2012

A glimpse of me

As I have been reading my little sister's blog, it has inspired me to start my own. Mainly I think this is going to be me sharing my journey through the remainder of my pregnancy and my experiences as a mom for the first time, and maybe just me sharing random thoughts on my daily life. Just so you know, I may get into TMI and I apologize now because I've decided that the more TMI I can learn from others, the more prepared I'll be for birth and motherhood.
So here goes! Be patient with me...




On Thursday I will be 38 weeks pregnant, and let me tell you, I am ready for my little man to make his appearance! I think 'uncomfortable' is my middle name lately. Sleep is difficult and standing or sitting in one position for extended periods of time are a bear too. Never in my life have I ever fallen asleep on one arm only to have my other one fall asleep. HELLO PREGNANCY, now I have!

My dad warned me that the half way point of pregnancy is the ninth month and I didn't believe him then, but let me tell you, he was right! You should see how graceful I am when I try to roll over in bed, or even just try to get out of bed to go pee for the 100th time in the night. I can't believe Damon doesn't wake up every time. Another fun thing is trying to buckle the seat belt in the car, or bending over when you drop something, which happens often because all your ligaments in your body are loosening in prep for having a baby...so a good grip is history. Or putting on your socks..

I do have to admit that this pregnancy has been rather easy. I had morning sickness (why do they call it that when it lasts all the time!?) for the first 4 months, but since then it's pretty much been easy peasy. My main ailments now are sore back (pinched nerves), being emotional, and heartburn.

Tums are pretty much my best friend...they are in my purse, in the downstairs bathroom, and by the bed. I was on my way to an appointment with my life insurance agent today and had terrible heartburn so I took a tums and the whole way there I was trying to get that chalky white substance off my tongue. I'm sure I looked lovely. I'm not sure if I was successful in getting it all off, that stuff sticks like glue!

Another thing that is crazy; especially at the end of pregnancy, is dreams. I've had quite a few where I go into labor and am no where near a hospital and can't get there, and then the baby is born breach. I've also had dreams where he is born and can talk and walk already. In one, he was arguing with me about his name. In one I had a dream where my (may be TMI here) boob exploded and milk went everywhere. YES, this was my dream. I told Damon that one and his reaction was "EW" I told my sisters and mom and they just laughed. Typical!

On another note, (see, I told you this was going to be random) Yesterday was Damon and my 1st anniversary! I got home from work to find he had gotten me beautiful flowers, a card, and cheetos!


He really put a lot of thought into it because he said the flowers reminded him of our wedding day and the card reminded him of when we were in Florida on vacation. He also got me a 35mm lens for my SLR so that I can take close up shots of Liam once he is here! It was an annibirthababyversery present he said :) I think he decided he wanted Ammo for his present.


He took me to Olive Garden for dinner and then we headed out to my parents new ranch to watch the Bears/Cowboys game. On the way there, we saw a fawn (about 4 months old is my guess) lying in the road. It had been hit by a car but they hadn't stopped to make sure if it was OK or not. Well, the poor thing wasn't OK. It's back had been broken and he was struggling to get off the road. I called my dad, not exactly sure what to do but not having the heart to just leave it there to suffer. Dad gave me the none-emergency number to call and the sheriff came out and met us. He put the fawn down, and let us take the carcass.  Dad, Jon (brother-in-law) and Damon skinned it and Dad butchered it this morning. It's sad that the fawn had to die but it made me feel a little better that he wasn't wasted. I understand things happen, but if you hit an animal and it's still alive but in pain, please, be decent enough to do something about it!

Well, I think that's enough rambling for one day, I'm off to an appointment with my midwife. I love hearing that little heartbeat every week and can't wait until my boy is in my arms.